Saturday, January 31, 2004

It's amazing how one moment can change your life.

Wednesday afternoon I found out I have diabetes.

I was at the doctor's office sort of for a check up when I found out. Then the doctor said she wanted to admit me to the hospital because my blood sugar level was outrageously high and my body was dehydrated. Basically, I was losing weight but ate a lot because I was hungry a lot and drank a lot because I was thirsty a lot. Turns out, my pancreas doesn't produce insulin and my body was burning fat because it couldn't properly break down sugar.

I was scared, but ended up going. I was there until this afternoon, but realize it was for the best. I learned a lot about Type 1 diabetes and how I am going to have to be disciplined about how I eat and what I eat. I have to give myself insulin shots and check my blood sugar several times a day. And that seems like the easy part. I also have to balance the number of carbohydrates I eat at each meal. I know it will get easier, but it's sort of information overload at the moment. I know enough to life safely right now, but I'm going to take a two-day class in a couple of weeks so I can start learning more about this disease.

The whole situation has made me think about a lot, and I had plenty of time to think in the hospital. First, we're complex beings. There's a lot going on inside of us, more than I will ever understand. Also, Greg and I had been talking recently about how we needed to eat better and learn about nutrition. Well, I guess I don't have much of a choice about that now. I probably can use a lesson in discipline, too. Unexpected situations, like being in the hospital, sure show who steps up to help. My mom came down for the day on Thursday, which really comforted me. The rest of my family called to check on me. Greg's family was so supportive and came to keep me company several times. Greg slept on an uncomfortable pull-out-chair-bed for me and brought me newspapers, ice water and anything else I wanted. Jaclyn brought me beautiful tulips and visited a couple of times. Work sent flowers. Erin and Jodi sent flowers and Jodi called to check on me. The new church we've been going to sent flowers and the pastor stopped by. I felt loved, which was something I needed to get me past the emotional first stage of dealing with this.

Maybe the best part of the whole thing: When I called Greg Wednesday afternoon just a few minutes after I found I have diabetes, crying, of course, he said, "It's OK, we'll change our lifestyle." He said, "we," and I was reminded I'm married to my best friend who is willing to live life with me, despite circumstances that may alter the course we thought we were on.

Tuesday, January 6, 2004

I'm an aunt again. That's twice in four days. Kevin and Laine had their baby girl this afternoon. Milla Eve Hill weighed 8 pounds 1 ounce and was 21 1/2 inches long. (Now, for those of you who don't know, the name is pronounced ME-LA.) My mom said she's beautiful. Kevin said she's cute. I can't wait to go see her this weekend.

Sunday, January 4, 2004

I'm in a time warp, not really sure what day or time it is. That's what the holidays have done to me. Seriously, though, working a full week is going to be strange after the last two weeks and all the driving we've done.

I'm an aunt. Angela and Charles (Greg's brother and sister-in-law) had their baby boy at 10:21 p.m. yesterday. Elijah William Taylor weighed 7 pounds 1 ounce and was 20 inches long. It's the first grandbaby in the family, so I'm sure you can imagine all the hype and celebration. I think Greg's parents took two rolls of film last night.

Speaking of yesterday, we left Murray at 8 a.m. to go to Louisville to watch Murray State get its butt kicked by UofL. The first half ended with the Racers up two points, but Murray State couldn't stay with Louisville in the second half. My mom came to the game with us, too. Then we watched the Titans game, which started out really slow and boring but turned out to be exciting. We headed back to Murray and got to the hospital five minutes after the baby was born.

Now if Laine will just have her baby girl.

I love those sugary conversation heart Valentine's Day candies. Yes, it's only the beginning of January, but I already bought some. They sure are tasty.

Back tracking, New Year's Eve was fun. My family -- Mom, Dad, Kevin, Laine, Cassie, Greg and I -- went to the UK-Austin Peay game in Louisville. The Governors almost pulled out a win over a sluggish Kentucky team. The crowd was pitiful -- only 11,000 fans in an arena that seats 18,000. After the game, Greg and I played games with my mom and Kevin and Laine. It was low-key but fun. New Year's Day I got to see my Aunt Carolyn and Uncle Jerry. I hadn't seen them since July or so. We ate chili and played games. We also watched "Calendar Girls" with my mom. Cute movie.

Cassie gave me Hoopla for Christmas. It's by the makers of Cranium and has some of the same activities involved. It's a game against the clock, though, and not the other players. We played it several times with my family and then again with friends in Murray Friday night.

OK, it's time to take the Christmas decorations down.