Saturday, November 29, 2003

I sure miss Louisville and my parents' house. Sometimes I don't realize it when I'm not here. But I'm here now, and happy about it. Greg and I got here yesterday evening, and went to Damon's to watch the UK basketball game. Cassie and Kelly went with us. It was great to see Kelly and play catch-up. I love waking up here, reading The Courier-Journal and curling up in the big, comfy chair in the living room.

Thanksgiving was good. We spent the day at Greg's parents' house. While it was slightly odd because it was the first time I had spent Thanksgiving away from my family, I enjoyed myself. I played Rook with Greg's mom, aunt and grandma and ate fabulous potatoes and apple pie, among other things.

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

These are the things I'd like to do:
sleep
Christmas shop
go to my parents' house
read a good book
watch a good movie
write a letter
talk to an old friend
drink hot chocolate with LOTS of marshmallows

But instead I have to go cover a city council meeting. And I should work on my Paducah freelance project.

Sunday, November 23, 2003

These quotes totally sum up how I feel today:

"Today, I feel weak and vulnerable, unable to sustain even one minute of mindfulness of prayer, the Scriptures are opaque and Jesus is hidden from consciousness. Yet, by the grace of God, I have an unwavering, unshaken trust that this is where I am supposed to be. God's love for me and the certainty in faith that He finds me lovable is independent of any good I may have done or any good I have neglected to do. Nothing is happening on a feeling level. I am much at peace with where I am and not questioning if I am doing something wrong and not panting for a felt sense of His presence." -- Brennan Manning

"... my self-imposed pressure leaves little time to simply live, for being human and playful, for delighting in pecan waffles and Scrabble. Is my life slipping by without
making time to be a friend with my friends?" -- Brennan Manning

(And, for what it is worth, I love waffles -- no peacans though -- and Scrabble. Those details, and the fact this man is a living testimony of grace, make Brennan Manning my hero. OK, and Greg and I did play Scrabble last night. And I beat him. But that was procrastinating, as is this, and I need to get busy.)

Friday, November 21, 2003

Life is often full of contradictions.
I want to be spontaneous. Yet I a planner and focus on details.
I love road trips, but would rather someone else drive.
I wish I could wear flip flops all year around, but I love socks.
I like my feet to be rubbed. But my feet are ticklish.
Summer is my favorite season, but I love snuggling up in blankets.
I like to be in control. I like to follow the leader.
I like attention. I hate to be the center of attention.
I couldn't wait to move out of my parents' house. Now I can't wait to visit.
I avoid drama. But I am emotionally high maintenance.
I avoid conflict. But I want to talk about everything.
I love to eat. I don't really know much about cooking.
I miss living in Louisville and Lexington. I find peace in the convenience of Murray.
CSI is my favorite show. I get nervous in the dark by myself.
I like my house clean and organized. I can't remember the last time I washed my car.
Change makes me hesitant. Routines make me antsy.
Yellow is my favorite color. I wear a lot of blue and black.
I love listening to music. I can't sing a lick.
Christmas is my favorite holiday. I don't like snow.
I want to live at the lake. I don't fish.
I think e-mail is fabulous. I love writing and receiving "real" letters.
The Internet is an endless resource. But I'd rather read newspapers and magazines.
I rarely drink milk. I love eating cereal.
I love hugs. I have to sleep on my own side of the bed.
Friends are suppose to be forever. I haven't talked to Cara since January.
I love to laugh. I'm not afraid to cry.
I like to talk. I like to ask questions and listen.
I'm a writer. I hate to speak in front of people.
I was a shy kid. I call and talk to strangers on a daily basis at work.
I am task-oriented. I am good at procrastinating.
I am a University of Kentucky basketball fan. I like Rick Pitino and Mike Davis.
I love college basketball. Dick Vitale is annoying.
Life is full of contradictions. Life can be whatever I want it to be.

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

"Ed" is a funny show. My mom tells me Ed's character reminds her of Greg. I think that's an alright observation. The even funnier part is the other night our friend Laura told Greg that Ed reminded her of him. I think it's the silliness and the ability to enjoy the simple things in life. And, well, of course, the fact he's a lawyer. How cool would it be if Greg had his law office in a bowling alley? That would be fun. But I bet he wouldn't get much work done.

Today I covered a meeting in the Curris Center. The meeting itself was incredibly boring, but I like going to the Curris Center -- that's the student center at Murray State -- because brings back good memories. Lots of good conversations with Greg and other college friends. Fun lunches in the cafeteria there. Yet at the same time, I am so glad they are memories and that I'm not in college anymore. Plus I can buy my favorite jelly beans there.

On a random note, I am so ready for UK basketball season to really get started.